Thursday, May 19, 2016

May is Bittersweet

May is a bittersweet month for me.  I have been struggling with my emotions for the past week because I've been recalling the last few conversations I had with Amy at this time last year.  I've also been thinking about the first time she visited Mike and I, in May, 2 years ago.   May has brought me my best friend (and someone I consider a sister), but it has also taken her away.  I can't help but hold disdain for this month.  It's similar to the movie "Inside Out" when Riley's core memories become multiple colors because multiple emotions contribute to the moments that make up her life.  I think May is yellow (happiness) and blue (sadness).

I remember on May 17th calling Amy to talk to her about my fear over my tonsillectomy surgery the next day and ask about going to visit her in the near future.  She barely had a voice and I contributed it to the fact that she had surgery just a few weeks prior.  I remember telling her to rest up and to let me know when she was feeling better so I could go see her and have a Tinkerbell movie marathon.  I made sure to end the call with an "I love you" and she replied with a "Love you too".

On May 18th we exchanged brief texts back and forth so she knew I got out of surgery OK.

On May 19th I texted her early in the morning because it was difficult for me to sleep longer than a couple hours at a time becuase my throat hurt so bad.  I shared with her that my mom found 4 leaf clovers at the surgery center and that I had a dream about her when I was under anesthesia.  We joked that it would be VERY bad for society if the stuff that knocks you out was available over the counter.  I also had a moment of clarity and remember thinking "man, i'm whining about this stuff and Amy's dealing with far worse...." so I had to tell her how much her friendship meant to me... Amy is the most selfless person I have ever met.  Below is a snippet of the conversation from that day...

Little did I know that would be the last thing we ever said to each other.

I want you guys to know, I don't blog these things or talk about Amy a lot to keep kicking you guys in the gut.  This is just part of my grieving process and unfortunately, grieving is a very selfish process to go through.  I know I'm not alone in this.  When we lost Amy, we ALL lost a very dear friend.  When I talk about and remember her, it helps keep me from bottling up my emotions.  It also helps me keep her close and her memory alive.  It's been so difficult for me going through life without being able to pick up the phone and call or text her.  With Amy gone, there's a void that I know will never be filled and I suppose this is my way of trying to fill that void.  For those of you that have been following along, I appreciate you taking the time to read what I write.  For those of you that my way of grieving re-opens your wounds, I do apologize.  It's definitely not my intention to cause others harm.

To everyone out there feeling this way about Amy or anyone you have ever loved and lost... *hugs*

I do hope you can join us this Saturday, May 21st 4-6 pm SLT for the Memorial Service in Second Life at the Alouette main store.  If the sim does become full, I will be posting a link so those of you that can't get in can still listen.  I would also like to share, with the help of Gattz Gilman, and inspired by "Inside Out", I was able to put together a "core memory" globe in honor of Amy.  There's a wearable and rezzable version that will be available for free at the memorial.

As always, Thank you for reading.


Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Memorial Service - Live Stream - Info Update

Thank you everyone that has been spreading the word about the Memorial Service in SL for Amy this upcoming Saturday, May 21, 2016 from 4-6pm SLT.  There has been an overwhelming response!

Keeping that in mind, if the sim becomes full on the day of the memorial, I will be posting a link so people can still listen in live.  Some attendees may be speaking, and unfortunately that can't be captured on stream so you may hear only music during those periods.   DJ Jesie has kindly volunteered to read all note cards submitted in the "Letters to Heaven" mail box.  I urge that all "Letters to Heaven" be submitted as soon as possible before the event.  The mailbox is currently located at the Alouette Main store near the main landing point.  The mail box is pink and is sitting on a table underneath the memorial invitation.

Another option is to send a recording of your message directly to DJ Jesie on Skype.  Her username is: jesiej07
All sound files must be .wav format and submitted directly to DJ Jesie via Skype no later than Friday, May 20th.

If you have any questions, please do not hesitate to ask!  The easist and best way to contact me is via plurk @LacieCakes

Thanks for reading!

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Remembering Amy - A Second Life Memorial Service 5/21/2016

Please Join Us
Saturday, May 21, 2016
4-6 pm SLT
Alouette Main Store
Larette Island
To celebrate the life and memory of Amy
Scarlet Chandrayaan of Second Life

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal.  Love leaves a memory no one can steal."
All who wish to speak are welcome to share their memories of Amy via text or voice.
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From now until the event feel free to write a note card and drop it off in the pink "Letters to Heaven" mail box located at the Alouette main store.  The mail box is on a table near the main landing point underneath the memorial service invitation.  Letters will be read out loud by DJ Jesie live on stream during the memorial service.􀀁

We all grieve in our own way and the purpose of this gathering is to come together to support each other and remember our beloved Amy.  She may be gone from this Earth, but never forgotten and always missed.

This is not a fundraising event.  We are usually accepting donations to help with "Rent for Alouette" but I do not want to take away any meaning behind this memorial service.  The "Rent for Alouette" donation R2D2 kiosk will return to Amy's store some time after the gathering is over.

If you wish to send support, you can always donate to a Relay for Life Kiosk or purchase Amy's products in her Alouette store.  Her RL parents manage her Second Life account so funds go directly to them.

Monday, May 9, 2016

May 2016 Tier Payment

Below are the screenshots for 5/2016's transactions.  As always, this post will be updated after Tier & Premium fees have been taken out this month.
Rental Avi FundsTransfer 5.2016

$L to $USD Exchange 5.2016

$L to $USD Exchange Finalized (Linden Sell Order Placed & Credited to account) 5.2016

Tier & Premium Fees Taken 5.2016